Marcela's Musing

Still no word from Sonic Rim so have to make decisions about UPA and insurance and whether to keep on applying to jobs. Already lost a chance at one gig because I thought it was a sure thing. Oh well. Called J but as usual, felt worse. Just when I thought I had gotten through it, he just had to tell me to call B since he wanted to hear from me which was such a cruel blow since I've called B at least 6 times this week. So I've decided those jerks are no longer worth my time, given that they don't think I'm worth theirs. I'm ready for hanging out with people who I can laugh and talk to. I'd recharged my friendships with Kris and Connette and as Cindy reminded me I should not let my emotions depend on what other people think of me. I don't think it's even conceivable that I could stay friends with J when I'm cutting B out but decided to let it go instead of calling him back to cut him down. I should stop stewing about it.