Marcela's Musing

An exhausting week. Interviewed on Monday with a firm in NC. Went so-so. A few questions where they probably disagreed with me and in general I was a little tired. Wish they hadn't insisted on it being in-and-out flight; would have liked to have seen Mom and just left me tired for the rest of the week. Hung out at Bianca's new house afterwards which was fun.

Yesterday, Happy-hour with HCI and HCC people. Two separate tables basically. Dynamics weird. Once the guy starts talking seems to dominate conversation. Been rather distressed lately--miss having friends and feel pent up from not having people to talk to. So show up at this even though don't drink beer and hate reeking of smoke afterwards. Deleted several Chicago people from my cell--more likely to call them by accident and then they make a big deal about how they see I called but apparently don't think I'm worth calling back. Like they'll notice or care, but I really need to purge them. Losing brain cells worrying over this is stupid.

Had an assignment due yesterday about best and worst experiences online which brought back memories. My best experience was talk sessions with Anna on the vax at NCSSM. Worst memories was harder. I went back and looked at NCSU email after remembering Bruce breaking up with me over email and finding the endearing emails he had sent just days before. A lot of other people who I hadn't heard from there too so I guess shouldn't feel lonely now. Ended up writing about trying to get ahold of my advisor this summer which stressed me out even to remember.